Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Positive then Negative

So for the last 2 days I have had lots of positive pregnancy tests. I used multiple brands too. All showed positive. Well today, I woke up and peed on another one. It was negative. I held my tears in, ran to the store, bought 6 more tests. Peed on another one. Negative. I burst into tears. Called a really close friend of mine who is also TTC and then I called my Dr. Dr said to come in to get bloodwork done. I get there and Im telling the woman whos taking my blood whats going on and she says, Well God bless you. I started crying again, and told her I really needed to hear that. It gave me a little bit of hope. So, my Dr should be calling me back before the end of the day with results. Last month this happened to me too, but I thought it was a fluke because of the brand I was using. They showed positive on 11dpo and 12dpo. 12dpo I also got bloodwork done which showed "less than 5 which means negative" and then I spotted at 15dpo and started my period on 16dpo. This month, It was 11dpo and 12 dpo that I had the positive results again, and today is 13dpo... waiting on blood work.... this is awful to me. I cant take this crap! 2 months of this! :'( I dont know. Maybe the Clomid isnt making my eggs good enough quality to stick? Something is not right tho. 2 months of me going through says that something just isnt right. I have finally calmed down a little. Got a little worked up when a few freinds of mine just didnt understand. I know thats all it was. They dont track their cycles, they dont research hormones and medicines and arent TTC so they jsut dont get it. They think I wasnt even pregnant to begin with even after they saw the positive pregnancy tests and said they saw the second lines. Im gonna go into prayer for awhile.....

2 comments:

  1. Chelsea, I'm so sorry that you are going through such an emotionally draining time. I do want to offer a small piece of advice. If, in fact, it is confirmed negative, talk to your doctor about progesterone supplements. I don't take any, and I'm on Clomid, but a lot of women on Clomid do. It helps sustain an implanted embryo. Clomid thins out the lining quite a lot.

    I'll say some prayers for you. And even if it is negative, just remember that you are held in God's hands, He feels your pain, He knows your hurt. But He has a plan for you and even when we don't see it, He is at work in us.

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  2. Amen! Thank you very much! I have been told I have a thickened endometrium at 22mm.... I figured maybe that was why I lost the baby...? Idk....

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